The Summer Continues!

We have swimming for our PE3 class! that means i’ll become tan in no time hahaha. but it’s okay, some said my skin was a little pale so this may be a good timefor me to have a better skin color.. to tell you guys, i’m not really fond of swimming – yes, swimming excites me since i only get the chance to swim once per year – but i’m not that kind of person that would really have fun in the pool and be joyful because of that. i’m not a kid anymore – though i’m still young. being in the pool already contents me. but i don’t even know how to swim! WTF! what i only know is that i know nothing (feeling like a philosopher) LOL.

PE3 is every saturday. and our sched rotates for no explained reasons. maybe it’s just the trip of our admin. for today, we were scheduled from 7.30am to 9am (unfortunately, i was 30 minutes late). we’ll be from 12nn to 1.30pm – saturday next week, then 10.30am to 12nn – the next next week, then 9am to 10.30am – next week after, and back to 7.30am to 9am again. one good thing is we can extend our time at the pool or come early in the pool. that way, we can still enjoy the swimming stuff even the other sections are already having their swimming class. and it really does feel like it is still summer hehe.

The only part i hated is we have to wear swimming trunks or cycling shorts, it feels embarrassing for me to wear such things. i am thin FYI – that is why i’m trying to become fat. LOL. and also the venue is HELL! i admit the pool is so nice but the private subdivision is isolated! i mean, since the place is for rich people, a few only live there! and even how fascinating the houses there could be, they are kilometers apart from each other! my gawd. why do they have to choose a venue exclusively only for the rich? and now we have to walk miles from the gate to the pool, and vice versa. it’s so hot you know.

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Btw i have to break my blog rule for now – coz i wanna share some more stuff. it’s just that my mom was confined last thursday at the FEU hospital (luckily, just at my school. at least i can visit her. haha). i wasn’t informed that time. i only know is she was nagging about her kidney – unaware that she have to be operated for that complaint. i visit her yesterday after classes (6pm) but she was being operated that time. an hour had passed before she was brought back to her room. i don’t know what to react nor what to say. honestly, we had a little argument just this week.. but what i can’t really take is i was still wearing my uniform that time. i felt anxious because people might think i was really a nurse. and seriously, i was really mistaken by one of those nurses or head nurse! i think. wahh.. i waited for my dad to arrive and got home 11pm. just a little time to prepare for today’s class.. for now, she is okay. they’re just waiting for her to be discharged by the doctor.

Life Is Unfair

I feel so down and discouraged today. i know life is a “bummer” but i didn’t expect it to be worse than that. i guess you guys are thinking this is all about the continuous price increase of EVERYTHING – from oil, to gasoline/lpg, to transportation fee, to the food we eat.. well, you may be right, or maybe this might be a deeper problem than any other problems an individual can encounter.

It is just astonishing for me to realize that this is the LIFE. a life different from the life i got used to be. a life i should be adjusting to, for me to endure the heavy load i carry and will be carrying.. who knows? maybe there will be other several kinds of lives i will have after what i have right now. but only one thing is for sure: life will never be easy. how carefree you are and how untroubled you may be, there is still one or two very difficult times in your life that you cannot avoid.. do you believe in fate? destiny? whatever.

I really want to go to a place far from reality. i want to be free from this EVERYTHING – with no problems, no troubles, but with only happiness in me. it would be an ideal life that everyone wanted to have, right? of course i want to have that kind of life too. but where will you be in that case? you’ll only exist in the dreams and daydreams of every people.. i’d rather choose that than to live in this material world. why, you ask? i’m starting to hate everything: the world, my life, myself.

I want to cry without someone seeing me. why can’t i do that? why can’t i have my privacy when i wanted to? why is it i always have to be with the people i don’t want to be with? is this what life is all about? is this similar to sacrifice? my heart is in pain and it is almost broken, can’t somebody fix it? do i really have to feel this pain? should i always be like this? when will my heart be healed? i want to be with somebody, but who could it be?… only God knows. i want to cry it all out loud to Him.

Entry, June 19th

My God! i can’t take this anymore! i feel like i wanna commit suicide with what’s happening to me right now. argh.. i hate thursdays from now on. aside from the fact that i stepped on a bubblegum around lunch time today, we have whole day class every thursdays. and take note: we only have two subjects – PHC 1 (primary health care) and RLE (related learning experience), which is a 9-hour major subject! WTF. yes we do have a couple of breaks and a lunch break, but who can make it alive with a subject that long? and Room506 is as hell as RLE! the ACs (aircon, for your information) were turned off! what’s the problem with the school? are they saving electricity? LOL.

And now, i’m stuck here doing three things at the same time. it sounds funny but i ain’t joking. i’m doing a reaction paper actually, then typing this blog entry while surfing the net about monetizing blogs. i know i should be prioritizing my studies first but i really can’t stop doing miscellaneous things such as visiting this blog. i’m sensing that i need to make updates today.. addicted, huh? hahaha. but i do hate this habit of mine. i’m needing medications for it.

Speaking of blog monetizing. i realized that making money isn’t that easy especially when you are using your 18-days-old blog! hahaha! i’m receiving NO responses and NO offers so far from several paysites that i joined. my earnings for now don’t even reach a dollar yet. it’s a little embarrasing for me, yet funny at the same time. but the beginner/noob still doesn’t lose hope, he still believes he will be successful to this field. pray for me.

Wednesdays

For this semester, wednesdays would be my favorite day. why, you ask? because every wednesday is our free day. what does that mean? that means we don’t have classes every wednesdays! isn’t that great? no? you’re just jealous, that’s why. anyways. i want to start the day right. but it seems i failed to do so. everyone in this house annoys me! when will i have a peaceful day?

My mom was ranting again last night – she annoys me.

My brother was shouting this morning – he annoys me too.

My dad was angry a while ago – he really annoys me.

So much of that ranting stuff. i want to finish some of my unfinished business here. at school, i have this heavy load on my shoulders, and even here at home. argh. i’m ranting again! when will i stop ranting? how will i make wednesdays a nice day with all this rants?

I Salute You, Sir

I apologize for not writing any new post in this blog. it’s either i was busy with something else or i wasn’t in the right mood to make one. there has been an issue that bugs me so much although i am not involved in it. i admit i was stupid to act so childish with these people. i feel sorry for them.

But for now, i would like to give my sympathy to Alma Moreno and her family. we all know that Rudy “Daboy” Fernandez has contributed a lot in both showbiz and movie industries that he had starred so many shows/movies whether they were action, drama or romance, and even comedy. it is somehow sad that he have to pass away because of cancer, and i believe it is everybody’s loss.

For what you – Sir Rudy Fernandez, have done while you were still living, we salute you for those things. even if we won’t see you or hear from you anymore, you will still remain in our memories.

The No Uniform Policy

I just heard it at the television yesterday. if you haven’t yet seen the news, click ME. here’s a bit of my POV:

We’re talking about public schools here right? and when we say public schools, we tend to think they are for poor or below average people. and since this is philippines, there is poverty. poverty is closely related to insufficient/lack of money (to afford everyday living) or no money at all. so poor people don’t have enough money to buy their needs and wants. and because they can’t buy what they need, they only own a limited set of clothes. this is where ate meng’s “idea” will come in:

meng.o3:

If there’s no uniform, students would buy extra clothes.
buying extra clothes means another expense.
now, how would that contribute to the lessening of expenses? would that even fight poverty?

Haha, i’m just sharing it anyway. if our president think that would lessen the problems of a poor filipino family, i don’t have anything against it. and now, back to school everyone!